WW Reminder

The last time I went to Weight Watchers to weigh in was June 16th. That was 160 days ago. 23 weeks is a long time. Basically, I have not been back to WW since I was laid off from my job.

At that time, I weighed 190.4 pounds – which is 3 pounds less than I do now. Talk about a reminder on how far I still have to go and that I really have not achieved anything yet!

It was 12/9/2015 when I went back to WW. At that time, I weighed 199 pounds which is very close to the 200.3 when I started to turn it around recently. The lowest I ever got my weight that go-round was 188.6 on May 5th. That’s five pounds less than I weigh now – and still 11 pounds more than I am aiming for these days.

Obviously, I am still fat.

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Slow But Good

It’s been 4 days since my last run. Saturday, we were very busy. And, the last three days had rain and 50 MPH wind gusts – and COLD.

Even this morning, it was cold and windy. The windchill was just at freezing this morning. But, I layered up and went out for a 5K run at 10:30 AM this morning. I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 29:35 – which is slow. But, it was a good effort. I wanted to get out there with the holidays coming.

I have now run 124 miles since Memorial Day.

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193.2

This morning’s number after breakfast. That’s after 12 days of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 13.

Thirteen days ago, I was 7.1 pounds heavier. I still have 16.2 pounds to go. And, that’s a lot.

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193.6

This afternoon’s number before lunch. That’s after 10 days of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 11.

It may be a bit misleading because I had a bad stomach bug Friday night.

Eleven days ago, I was 6.7 pounds heavier. I still have 16.6 pounds to go.

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Working Hard

I went for a 5K run at 11 AM today. Super nice day for this time of the year. Fifty-five degrees and BRIGHT sun.

It was hard. I really had to push. But, I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 28:28 – worked up a good sweat. Really raised my body temp.

I have now run 120.9 miles since Memorial Day. My next run will be my 40th personal 5K run since that holiday weekend.

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194.1

This morning’s number before breakfast. That’s after 8 days of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 9.

Nine days ago, I was 6.2 pounds heavier. I still have 17.1 pounds to go.

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194.5

This morning’s number before breakfast. That’s after one full week of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 8.

Eight days ago, I was 5.8 pounds heavier. Of course, I know the first week is always the big week. And, it’s going to get harder from here out. The important thing is to keep pushing and not get too giddy over just one week’s good behavior.

I still have 17.5 pounds to go. That’s a mountain remaining. It would be HUGE to lose another five pounds next week. But, I know it’s more likely to be closer to two pounds. As long as it’s heading in the right direction, that’s OK.

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The List Of Things To Remember

    • #1 – Don’t confuse hunger with thirst. Before sticking something solid in your mouth, have a big drink of water instead.
    • #2 – If you don’t eat at least one apple a day, you’re not trying. Apples contain a certain type of fiber called pectin which is found between the cell walls of plants and is classified as soluble fiber. Soluble fiber has been shown to slow down digestion by attracting water and forming a gel which ultimately helps you feel fuller longer.
    • #3 – If you hang out in a barber shop long enough, eventually you’re going to get a haircut.
    • #4 – Food is fuel, not a pacifier.
    • #5 – Never forget that time you wanted/needed to wear something and you could not get it zippered/buttoned/snapped close, especially as you are about to snack on junk food.
    • #6 – Look around you. There are people who are overweight and there are people who are fit and able to maintain their weight. Decide which side you want to be on.
    • #7 – Don’t let the negativity of others become your stress.
    • #8 – Before you can start feeling good about yourself, you need to start feeling good about yourself.
    • #9 – Don’t let your mouth right checks that your waistline will regret getting cashed.
    • #10 – If you’re about to eat something because you’re tired, or bored, or stalling on doing something else, instead of eating it, take a nap (even if it’s just for 15 minutes) – and, as you’re starting to fall asleep, begin to dream about how you want yourself to look and feel when you are not overweight.
    • #11 – Ask someone who has lost weight and kept it off about how they changed the way they eat and manage it.
    • #12 – On average, you could need to jog pretty fast for a half hour to burn off the calories in one frosted donut. Wouldn’t it be easier just to skip the donut?
    • #13 – Treat bread as if it was cake.
    • #14 – Pausing for celebration breaks momentum. Keep the pedal to the metal.
    • #15 – Always be aware that every choice you make has a consequence.
    • #16 – What you did yesterday, good or bad, doesn’t matter. The only thing that is important is what you do right now.
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Good Effort

I went for a 5K run at 11:30 AM today. It was nice weather – sunny, 50′s with some light wind in spots. It was good to get out there since I didn’t run Monday or Tuesday. Yesterday, it rained ALL DAY. And, on Monday, I had a job interview. (Fingers crossed!)

It was hard out there. I pushed myself. And, I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 28:29. Maybe it was hard because it was so close to lunch?

I have now run 117.8 miles since Memorial Day.

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194.6

This morning’s number before breakfast. That’s five days in a row of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 6.

Six days ago, I was 5.7 pounds heavier. I am beginning to feel the difference in my jeans. I still have 17.6 pounds to go. This is no time for celebration. It’s time to push even harder.

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Another Good One

I went for a 5K run around 9:30 AM today. It was sunny, but, breezy and cool. I went with sweats and a hoodie. I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 28:27 and it was hard. But, I did it – and I feel good about it.

I have now run 114.7 miles since Memorial Day.

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196.4

This morning’s number before breakfast. That’s three days in a row of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 4.

Four days ago, I was 3.9 pounds heavier. It’s amazing how not pigging out can make a difference. I still have 19.4 pounds to go, and, that’s a lot.

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197.2

This morning’s number before breakfast. That’s two days in a row of being control of what I am eating. Today is Day 3.

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Need Control

In January 2007, I reached my goal weight. I had to lose 58 pounds to get there. But, I did it. And, from that time until (around) April of 2013, I was able to maintain that number of (around) 174 pounds.

What happened? Starting in Feburary 2013, I began working from home 100% of the time. Being that close to the kitchen all the time was not a good situation. By the end of 2013, I was about 15 pounds over that goal weight which I had maintained for 6+ years. In the 3 years since 2013, I have added another 10 pounds or so (give or take depending on the snapshot in time).

Basically, the last 4 years have been a slide downhill which has erased 40% of the weight loss that I worked so hard to achieve and maintain for over six years.

Age has something to do with it. I turn 54 this month which means I was 50 when the trip downhill started. (I was 44 when I lost the 58 pounds and kept it off for 6 years and change.) Stress plays a hand as well. The past 2 years have been perhaps the most stressful years of my life. I wouldn’t exactly call my house a comfort zone these days. It started 2 years ago with my wife’s tragic situation and got worse when I was laid off from my job 5 months ago.

For an emotional eater, that’s a bad combination – stress filled home environment and being so close to the kitchen all day long.

At this point, I just want to lose 20 pounds and try and maintain it. The number doesn’t have to be 174. I can live with 178 as long as it stays there. I feel like I can do it. I know I’ve tried many times over the last 4 years to make it happen.

What’s different this time? At this point in my life, I feel like the ability to control my weight is the only thing I have going for me. And, I need to get some control over anything at this point.

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Good One

I went for a 5K run after breakfast today. It was sunny, in the 50′s with a little breeze. Great running weather. This was my first time out in 8 days. I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 28:31. It was super hard at times. But, I pushed through it.

I have now run 111.6 miles since Memorial Day.

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197.4

It was a bit of a cheat, because I weighed myself as soon as I woke up and had anything to eat for breakfast. But, I came in at 197.4 pounds today. I needed to see a better number. Yesterday was the first day in a what seems like a million years where I made good choices, used portion control, and showed good restraint. It was only Day 1 of the 90 Day Plan. I still have a long way to go (20 pounds or so). And, I needed that inspiration, even if it came with a little cheat.

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February 8, 2017

That’s the magic day. On that date, 90 days from today, I expect myself to weigh 177 pounds or less.

It’s an attainable goal – at least it should be one. That’s a tad less than 2 pounds a week, on average, to lose. The figure is right there with what most say is an acceptable and healthy pace to lose weight. Of course, it won’t be a steady 1.8 pounds per week for 13 weeks. There will be fluctuation for sure. But, at the end of this span, I want to weigh 177 pounds or less on February 8th 2017.

It will be hard work for 90 days. But, if I take it one day at a time, the results will be there.

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200.3

As I feared and suspected, that’s the number on the scale this morning. I need to lose at least 23 pounds now before I can feel proud about my condition.

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It’s Armageddon

It’s been the worst week ever. And, that’s saying something considering how the past five months, or the past two years, or the past four years have gone.

I’m afraid to get on the scale. It’s been a while. But, I know it’s going to read over 200 pounds or close to it. I can’t even fit into my fat jeans any more. They are bursting at the seams. Literally, I feel like two pounds of sausage in a one pound casing.

My eating is out of control. It’s so bad, I think I need a straight jacket. Whether it’s depression, stress, anxiety, fear, boredom, gluttony, the feeling of being unloved, or some combination therein, I can’t stop myself. At this rate, I will be 240 pounds by the end of the year. All I want to do is be in a dark room with the sheets pulled over my head. It’s the total opposite of where I was four years ago.

Everyday, I say today is the day, or, that it starts tomorrow. And, I fail at some point during the day. It’s sad and predictable at this point.

Of course, getting laid off five months ago and not being able to find a new job doesn’t help. That was like pouring gasoline on a fire. But, the fire was already there.

I need to find some control. I need to get on the scale today and see how far that I have fallen. I need to make my weight management my number one priority in my life now. Too many times I have put it on the back burner or let it totally fall off my radar. I need to get passionate about it again. That’s been missing for a long time. I need to exercise way more often. I need to drink a lot of water and get myself off the Diet Coke habit. I am terribly lonely. My kids are self-absorbed at this point, being teenagers and all. And, all my wife says to me these days is “No one has time for you to have a pity party at this point. Just get over yourself.” I guess she’s tired of listening to me say how much I hate my situation?

I need to start loving myself and feeling good about myself. Getting my weight under control is a huge part of that happening.

I just need to be accountable, make better choices, and not quit (even if I stumble). One day at a time, one meal at a time, one hour at a time – whatever it takes.

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Bueno

Perfect running weather. Not too hot, not too cold, overcast yet not humid. So, I went for a 5K run this morning after breakfast. Ran the whole way. Really had to push myself. Worked up a monster sweat. Covered the 3.1 miles in 27:46. Like I said, “Bueno.”

I have now run 108.5 miles since Memorial Day.

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Blah

I took Saturday, Sunday and Monday off. Basically, feeling sorry for myself.

It was a nice running day today, in terms of the weather. So, I went out for a 5K run at 11:30 AM (which is a little later for me than usual).

I felt a stitch in my left side about half way through – but, I keep running. At the 2:43 mile mark, I had to walk for one-tenth of a mile. Hence, the post title. Total time for the 3.1 miles was 28:24.

I have now run 105.4 miles since Memorial Day.

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Very Good

I went for a 5K run at 10:30 AM today. It was cloudy, with some sun, but, cool and breezy. In fact, for the first half of the run, I was cold. (I guess it’s time to ditch the shorts and t-shirts.) The real feel was just about 40 degrees.

I did not go for a run yesterday because it rained all day. I took off Wednesday for some soul searching. And, Tuesday, I couldn’t run because we had some personal stuff going on. So, it was good to get out there today.

I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 28:10 and felt strong doing it.

I have now run 102.3 miles since Memorial Day.

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195.9

That’s what the scale read this morning. That’s no change, either way, in the last 9 days.

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Good

I went for a 5K run at 9:30 AM today. It was sunny, but, cool. Around 50 degrees. I never got out on Friday, Saturday or Sunday – family stuff and rain. So, I really wanted to get this done today.

I ran the whole 3.1 miles in 28:29. I really concentrated on my breathing and it helped. This is good.

I have now run 99.2 miles since Memorial Day.

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The Same

I was thinking of taking today off. But, I know that I will not get a chance to run on Saturday or Sunday – probably Friday too. So, at 10 AM, I went for a 5K run. It was still warm out there – but, not as much as yesterday.

I got to the 2.5 mile mark and then had to walk a tenth of a mile before running again. The time for the 3.1 miles was 29:06. I still have to get back to running all the way.

I have now run 96.1 miles since Memorial Day. I wish it was closer to 125 miles.

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