In January 2007, I reached my goal weight. I had to lose 58 pounds to get there. But, I did it. And, from that time until (around) April of 2013, I was able to maintain that number of (around) 174 pounds.
What happened? Starting in Feburary 2013, I began working from home 100% of the time. Being that close to the kitchen all the time was not a good situation. By the end of 2013, I was about 15 pounds over that goal weight which I had maintained for 6+ years. In the 3 years since 2013, I have added another 10 pounds or so (give or take depending on the snapshot in time).
Basically, the last 4 years have been a slide downhill which has erased 40% of the weight loss that I worked so hard to achieve and maintain for over six years.
Age has something to do with it. I turn 54 this month which means I was 50 when the trip downhill started. (I was 44 when I lost the 58 pounds and kept it off for 6 years and change.) Stress plays a hand as well. The past 2 years have been perhaps the most stressful years of my life. I wouldn’t exactly call my house a comfort zone these days. It started 2 years ago with my wife’s tragic situation and got worse when I was laid off from my job 5 months ago.
For an emotional eater, that’s a bad combination – stress filled home environment and being so close to the kitchen all day long.
At this point, I just want to lose 20 pounds and try and maintain it. The number doesn’t have to be 174. I can live with 178 as long as it stays there. I feel like I can do it. I know I’ve tried many times over the last 4 years to make it happen.
What’s different this time? At this point in my life, I feel like the ability to control my weight is the only thing I have going for me. And, I need to get some control over anything at this point.