In about 113 hours, I will wake up as a 50-year old for the first time.
Actually, part of me was looking forward to it. But, today, I am in a much different place.
I am stressed out over some recent developments at work and home. And, today, I am just very tired and super-depressed. Also, I feel fat – like I am busting out of my pants. All told, I am down in the dumps and a mess.
I was planning on going to the gym this morning before work. But, at that critical point of “go now or don’t have enough time to go,” I threw in the towel and went back to bed for another 30 minutes.
My workday is going to end early today. And, I suppose that I could go to the gym this afternoon or evening. Yet, I have no drive to get myself there and have a workout.
All I want to do is pig out and be lazy today. Falling asleep in front of the TV sounds like a great goal, to me, right now.
Why am I like this?
I haven’t had a diet coke since Monday. Is this some sort of withdrawal? Or, is it the stress from work (which is really bad now) and home (which just picked a bad time to start up this week) just wearing me down? Perhaps I am just coming down with something? (My eyes are burning – like they do when you are sick.) Maybe it’s some combination of things?
I just know that I need to get my act together – and fast.
Tomorrow is Thanksgiving. Too many chances to overeat there. And, Friday will be a stress day followed by a visit to family afterwards. After that, on Saturday, we have plans for the day which could be stressful. Lastly, on Sunday, I have my 5K race – and it’s supposed to be very cold and somewhat windy.
This is no time for me to be a state of mind like this now…